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I heard rumors of a dark room, FB? [lol]
I could use one!
I seriously need to go to bed early, I can't remember the last time I was quite this tired. Staying up till the small hours worrying about the upsetting twists and turns of this forum really wasn't what the doctor ordered [rolleyes]
Still, I finish at work tomorrow. I'm feeling quite optimistic about moving on with the next stage in my life actually, even though I know it will be hard. I'm pleased I'm doing it.
Next week's not going to be much fun though, it's all the loose ends I have to tie up - changing my address on everything, paying off bills, and, the worst thing, packing! I'll have to make lots of decisions as to what I throw/give away and what I try to keep. Whether I can fit everything in my luggage or whether I leave stuff here with friends for a bit. And we should all know by now how bad I am at making decisions!
Still, big picture. I have to focus on the big picture.
Even if that does involve moving back into my mum's house (something I swore last time I would never do again) while I look for a car and a flat. I'm hoping it won't take more than a few weeks, but that remains to be seen, of course.
I am so looking forward to having my own place though (even if I will still be renting, I hope to be renting in my own name, at least!). I am looking forward to having my own furniture and being able to have my belongings in one place again for a while. I'm even looking forward to things (shops) like Paperchase and M&S. I know it's insane.
It's not like me to be this optimistic. And there's going to have to be an awful lot of effort expended before I get there, which I'm not looking forward to at all. And it's going to be hard to build up a new social life from scratch and working freelance isn't going to be easy.
I always want to have a fast forward button on things like this. To skip past the actual "doing" and get to the point when it's done and I can enjoy it.[rolleyes]